My dreams will come true. I'm putting this book together that holds everything I want out of my life..I never really thought about what I wanted but I always had such big expectations for everything.I never thought twice that maybe some of the things I did expect would never happen. I am glad to say though I'm finally at peace with everything in my past. I have this picture of me and Hannah that sits on my bookcase. Its this picture of me and her sitting in the water at Cinnamon Bay in St. John, I remember the water was so clear and we felt like the luckiest girls in the world. Tell me thats not being at peace? lol. I've thought about framing poems that were written.. I just hold no hard feelings towards anyone. New years I sat by myself in my bed and watched forrest gump.. usually new years I usually have to being doing something really fun or else it just completely stinks but this time I knew I couldn't really do anything that would be alot of fun unless you consider cranium downstairs in the basement with Lisa, Deana and Bruce.. other people I don't know fun then seriously count me out.. anyway I was perfectly content b/c I knew my time would come when I have this glamorous new years party just not this time. I will get out of this house maybe not alive but I will get out. I'll travel, drink the finest wine, own the biggest apple tree orchard anyone has ever seen, help save the world in any way I can. I will do this all.. I think its finding happiness in the small things everyday that makes all the difference.I need to think of things I take joy in and appreciate them like, buying new shoes and then going for ice cream, receiving packages in the mail, writing letters, telling stories.. its just appreciating life.it's been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments of our lives while they're happening. We grow complacent with ideas or things or people and we takethem for granted ... and its usually not until that thing is about tobe taken away from you that you realize how wrong you've been;that you realize how much you really need it; how much you love it.-One Tree Hill